this
urgh

My new best friend is called mimi.

she jumps and lives in my nose and will never leave,

at least for tonight

Create Talents just asked me down for an interview for freelance modelling.

hm.. heard its pretty much scam but i might wanna see how it goes anyway :)

and no i wont pay

I feel really happy today :)

sehr gluecklich sein!

see, yesterday i was out celebrating with the escape people.

we went to katong for karaoke.

my dad called me 12 times and sent a msg, in which i only reply at 11pm(my bad)

yeah i know i suck, but if u read what was below, u might somehow understand why im so fucked up.

my dad sent me a msg this afternoon just before i left the house.

this was a really special msg.

it read that he was disappointed in my response yesterday and that he thinks that our dad-son relationship seems to

dwindle.

he thinks that more should be done and he wishes to liase with me, so that we can improve on it together.

i was so proud of that msg, i didnt think that he would ever send something like that.

he started his message with 'my son, gerald, ...' too

its such a leap.

and we just had a good talk just now.

its not too indepth, but at least its a progress.

we might be going to sengkang swimming complex for fun this sunday :D

i cant wait.

oh, and steve made me really happy today too :)

im posting some pics probably tomorrow.

night people!

xx

Its like less than 2months before promos, 36days to be exact.

im totally unprepared.

well i do wish i can leave this stressful life and live somewhere else.

i dont mind GERMANY(DUH), UK, Cyprus(ALEX, U NOE lOL) or anywhere else actually

except some ghetto place and places like china, india blahblahblah

i need a change of phone too, this phone sucks X999

i want to post some pictures actually, but i dont have much to post.

OH, SAMBA MASALA is PRETTY COOL, GO CHECK IT OUT.

if i have the choice, i dont mind joining it.

ITS MIGHTY COOL.

werd werd werd!!!

oh yeah i think piercings anywhere else except the ears are pretty gross.

i shant go on elaborating.

and i think some people are trying to hard to impress.

its like they fucking have no life.

woah, its been at least 9347394867days since ive been here.
bin gut, ja alles klar

Ive made a very important choice recently, to drop a subject.
thats not very important, but i think its my greatest choice ever.
there are consequences and i might not hang out with the guys again, but ohwell,
life goes on.

im dignosed with temporary LBP
my lips and my face have been white frequently.
awesome.
they are dragging me to HELL urgh, i dont wanna see the chinese medics!!!

Moin!

Realised that i cant contain hatred for long, whatever happened seem long gone and forgotten, maybe its a good thing :D

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wasteoflifewasteoflifewasteoflife

:)

emo post, u are warned.

Shit happens, and today it did.

well first i spoilt my earphone, den my family had some fucked up issue.

well i was called spoilt(who spoilt me?), and non-self-reflective(right, sms not?)..

oh it all arose from something rather small, like the fucked up DELL PC which i intend to repair maybe 10-20mins later, or when they go out for dinner.

den i learnt that 'parents are not role models, neither are siblings' exist, since 'traditional' and 'shy' parents are not supposed to say sorry, but their children are supposed to.

den i lost all respect of somebody because she is unable to substantiate any of her points well, but instead, exercise her authority with a 'dont test my limit' when she was trying to 'reconcile'

did i mention that they were all enjoying their tv programs when they said they are worried?

anyway they have many weak points, especially about the memories thing. i dont have the best memory, but i was so disappointed that i have better memories of things i did well yet it was not ever taken into consideration.

speaking about taking the first step, what was their first step in engaging a decent conversation without snapping or just shutting the fuck up?

thanks for all your contributions tho, i wouldnt be this way if ud never taught me like u did. I love all my materials too, which is equivalent to ur love. appreciate it.

how i wish i was borned somewhere else, like america or the UK where by 18 i would have my own place.

then the not so emo part..
I feel mighty lucky i have muhd and lw.. they are my best pals, listening and cheering me up. i really dunno what i will do without them. despite them having their stuff to be busy with, they took the time to provide a listening ear and doing all they can, trying to help me tide over. i would not ask for anyone better than them. i wont give anything up for them really, never ever felt so touched before, and understood. THANKS GUYS, I KNOW U WILL READ THIS. or i hope u would. <3 dont give a damn if its mushy or gay :])

i wanna do some ionic eqm tut now,
laters.

81st post!
19 more to go, then it marks my first success towards my #4672979th blog tries.
I actually wanted to blog about something but i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
Apart from the fact that i had just taken MYE and didnt do as well as i hope for.
ohwell, shit happens.
Anyway i bought McFly's RadioACTIVE album, and man, i love it!
I wish i can lay my hands on Michelle Branch's albums ):
And i recently found out some nasty secrets
urgh

The most horrendous bus ride ever.

Today's bus ride has got to be the worst worst ride ever.. Firstly, the bus took like 15mins to arrive, then there was this cheena group of middle-aged people barging into the minicuous queue. yeah, respect and those bullshit for the elderly, they are not even old, but well, their attitude proved otherwise. the bus finally arrived, then i got to sit between 2 oversized people :X 1 of them reeked of some pungent cologne, which is seriously unbearable. the aroma got my head spinning, and caused me splitting headaches due to prolonged sniffing of undesirable smell. time is moving at a snail's pace.. Then, the wonderful thing happened, 1 ****** man came on board, sat in front of me and he had his own odour as well, the ****** one. so, a combination of heavenly smell to entertain my fragile nose. oh did i mention that the bus driver needs something at every terminal? he spent about 15mins stopping at every single terminal to crap or sthg. so in all, i spent about 45mins to reach home from the airport; half an hour spent trying to cover my nose with my hoodie, and no fidgeting.
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dunno why blogger aint allowing me to upload pictures today ugh.
anyway maths today was a total failure.
toodles guys!

Dear blog,

Im coming here to wish u all the best, cuz i might leave u soon.

See, my MYE is coming.. In fact, its only 2 days away, and i think i will have to really mug my head

off. Although it is so rare to see me study, but i think i ought to try. Persistance and endurance,

those will keep me going. I'm so sorry u will not see me for 2 days, but its okie, id left u umpteen

times before, in preparation for these 2 days. We will meet again soon, someday, somewhere, here.

Kisses, hugs and whatever you want, except me,

GERALDCE.
xx

Schools to re-open as scheduled despite H1N1 situation
By S Ramesh, Channel NewsAsia | Posted: 22 June 2009 1823 hrs

SINGAPORE: Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan has said schools will re-open and the Asian Youth Games and National Day celebrations will carry on.

However, recently-returned students who have travelled to affected countries will stay at home for one week before joining their classmates when schools re-open on Monday.

The Ministry of Education (MOE) will provide more details soon, added Mr Khaw.

The health minister was speaking at a news conference on Monday to give an update on the latest developments on the Influenza A(H1N1) situation.

Mr Khaw said that overall, life must continue as normally as possible, with targeted control measures.

One of them would be to close a school when a significant cluster is found so as to break the transmission, or to isolate a competing team from other athletes as was done with the Filipino and the Hong Kong football players.

Mr Khaw also revealed that the scientific committee, chaired by the Director of Medical Services, is effectively evaluating the characteristics and the genome of the virus.

The committee has determined that the H1N1 virus in Singapore remains identical with that in North America.

Hence, the consensus view was that the virus remains moderate-risk and Singaporeans need not panic over the development that there is now community spread in the country.

Mr Khaw is confident that almost all infected cases will be able to recover fully and that Tamiflu and Relenza remain effective against the disease.

He, however, added: "But I thought I should explain that moderate risk does not mean no death. Just like the seasonal flu, there will be some deaths. That's why we need to target the high-risk patients, especially those with underlying medical conditions and to render the best chance of a full recovery.

"And that is why we need to allow our hospitals to be able to focus on the high-risk cases and not be distracted or overwhelmed by hundreds of mild cases."

Among those in the high risk include pregnant mothers, people with asthma, those on kidney dialysis or on chemotherapy.

The Health Ministry intends to advise these groups of patients with direct mailers of what they can do to protect themselves.

The ministry is also gearing up all its polyclinics and a few hundred general practitioners to treat suspected H1N1 cases in Singapore.

Giving details of measures to tackle a wider community spread of the influenza, Mr Khaw explained that these will be called Pandemic Preparedness Clinics or PPCs and they can be recognised by their decal to handle walk-in suspect cases.

These clinics will only refer some categories of high-risk suspect patients to public hospitals. Mr Khaw said the Health Ministry will publicise to Singaporeans where these clinics are so they know where to seek advice.

He explained: "When the local bio-surveillance data confirms significant community spread and we need to move from containment to full mitigation, we will signal to the public to use these PPCs instead of going to the hospitals if their flu conditions are mild. And this may happen over the next few days."

The health minister also revealed that the government would secure adequate supplies of the H1N1 vaccine for the population.

Besides the existing supply contract with the vaccine manufacturer, Mr Khaw said the ministry is also in active negotiations with other vaccine manufacturers. The aim is to diversify the supply of H1N1 vaccines.

Concluding, Mr Khaw said that last week has been eventful in the development of the outbreak in Singapore and the ministry has expected this development, given the large number of travellers returning from their June holidays.

But he said seven-week head start in battling the virus has been extremely useful, allowing the government to gear up its system for the community spread phase of the outbreak.

His advice to Singaporeans is to carry on with their lives normally, but keep up the high standard of personal hygiene.

- CNA/ir
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Irritating la, extend 1 week will die uh? stupid education system in singapore, just makes me even more determined to emigrate next time. the poll's pretty much useless too.. cant wait to leave this stupid place.

i wanna own a ranch somewhere, and enjoy a peaceful cut-out-from-the-world life for a while, before pursuing something. somewhere NOT in singapore :)

I was reading the Straits Times today and came across the maintenance fee issue.. feeling bored, i went on to do some research.



Men disadvantaged in SG?

first visit these websites..
http://www.singapore-window.org/sw02/020207at.htm
http://menspeak.blogspot.com

Womans Charter Wedding Vows Groom:I take you to be my wedded wife, to pay all bills including yours for a high lifestyle you wish even if you earn more than me, to look after the children, be faithful to you even if you sleep around. You can keep your money, my house and divorce me anytime you like for any reason whatsoever and i cannot help it. Bride:I take you to be my wedded husband, and if you fail to meet your duties I'll divorce your ass faster than you can say "sorry" << >here
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'thats why most say in marriage, guys dug a grave, girls brought an insurance plan, should anything go wrong, the guys bury themselves in and the girls get all the inheritance...' << here
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'men's charter should state that men are not allowed to carry the woman's handbag it is a sorry sight, i cringe whenever i see a man carrying a handbag what more if it does not match his shoes' << here
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Woman: We fight for our equal rights, we must treated the same as man!
Man: Then you must serve NS for 2 years too!
Woman: No! We can't! We are weaker vessel. We serve our 'NS' at home as housewife.
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Discrimination in:

entrepreneurship? Its a market economy out there, if u r good, u'll survive. if ur business plan suxs, the venture will eventually collapse anyway. so far, i don't see the consumers frequenting a shop just because the shop owner is a man or a woman. just because a woman isn't up to it in business, it doesn't mean that she gets to have extra advantages over others in the market.

in the workplace? there are plenty of female bosses out there. companies look at look makes the most profits. they don't sacrifice profits to meer "gender preferences", since profits are the main reason for the the company's continuing existence.

education? there are currently a worldwide trend with more women studying in universities, as opposed to men.

pay? in singapore, males are paid slightly more, (not much anyway, only about $200 more), for doing NS. if females want to earn the same pay as males, they are free to serve their optional NS. no one is stopping them from doing that.

marriage? women generally are not interested in divorcees above 40 yrs old.

affairs? society now frown on extra-marital affairs by both men and women.

clothing? this is not like the middle east, when women have to conform to a strict dressing code. they have to be covered from head to toe. in singapore, if a woman is to go run about the neighbourhood in a bikini, she would at most attract catcalls from ppl. if a man is to run about his neighbourhood in a pair of trunks, he would most likely be sent to woodbridge.

sexual preference? gay homosexuality is illegal, while lesbian homosexuality is legal.

legal punishment: males can be awarded a maximum of 24 strokes of cane in one hearing. (that means that if he has multiple hearings, he may be awarded more than 24 strokes). for females, there's no caning. << here

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Men disadvantaged in Women Charter
There have been spates of debates over that question in the recent years, yet nothing has been changed, amended or refined even though there were so many so-called reviews to the charter itself. I do agree that reviews should be made in accordance to our current societal situation, with many females holding high paying jobs(cant remember where, but I've read that 60% of the senior civil servants are female in Sg), and that perhaps 'Women Charter' should be changed to 'Family Charter' to equalise the gender discrimination.

Fyi, Women Charter was started in the 1960-1970s where bias against women is widely prevalent in Sg. It is not so relevant, in my opinion, in the current context, due to more females being educated and holding degrees etc, and earning higher incomes compared to their counterparts. (find your own damn statistics)

Women have always been wanting to vie for equality, so shouldnt the law requiring men to pay for the maintenance fee and alimony be changed to spouses instead? There was even a case of a wife who earned twice the salary of her husband, yet after divorce, the husband was required to give a petite maintenance fee of $1/- to her monthly. Isnt this obviously unfair? The wife has every capability to support herself, even better than the husband, yet she is entitled the fee.

The focus is not the magnitude of the fee, but the rationale in the less-capable husband providing the fee to the more-capable wife. Shouldnt it be the other way round, since feminists have always vouched for equality. In cases like these, its crystal clear that the women's charter is skewered to protect women, more than their interest and well-being.

'AWARE points out recent statistics, which show that in at least 100,000 households in Singapore, men are unable to fulfill their expected traditional roles and their wives have become the de facto head and sole provider for the family.' <- women often complained that their traditional roles of being housewives is definitely a form of stereotyping or prejudice, but what about this? men's traditional role to be breadwinner is the norm, even if their wives can earn more?
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I do not really feel anymore inclined to discuss the issue.. just felt the need to express it.
Im reading this, which is really interesting. the dispute between mrsean and jojobeach is so intriguing

haha, i held his GF, the green jelly, captive inside a

U can view that pic on my dailybooth which is
somewhere located there(de link). I cant wait for tmr to end, since i only have


and

i think i will end before

I feel like eating
cuz im so damn
now. anyway all are from

BYEBYE

I think my life revolves around the word 'wait', and so does many others, including YOU.

I usually categorize wait into 3.. the temporary wait; the permanent wait; and the miscellaneous.

the temporary wait is something like anticipation, for instance, a birthday, your birthday. take that as an example, your birthday is coming in 5 days, ur adrenaline is pumping, you cant wait, but u still have to. its hobson's choice.. yadaa yadaa, 5 days past, ITS UR BIRTHDAY, but in a blink of an eye, its gone again.. poof, disappear, u gotta wait ANOTHER year for it.

then theres the permanent wait. its like age, when u cant wait to be 18, so that u can drink alcohol, watch m18, shag and whatsoever legally. and once ure 18, u will never be able to turn back the time. time doesnt come to a standstill, it proceeds on, but ure permanently 18, and u dont have to wait for it any longer. u can drink, shag, smoke all you want, theres no stopping u. its all upright; lawful!

then of cuz u have de frustrating everyday waits, like waiting for a damn bus, waiting for the skies to fall, waiting for someone to drop hints, waiting for the iron to warm up before you strike, waiting for lectures to end, waiting for someone to shut up, waiting for this and waiting for that.. and i think most of our waits are predominantly THIS kinda wait.

altho this post is kinda nonsense, cuz theres no stand or wadever, i think it makes perfect sense, and i just feel the urge to post this. i think i spend 2/3 of my life waiting.. even sleeping is a form of waiting, to wait for the dawn to break, to wait for a new day. see everything revolves around the word, or rather the action 'wait'..

so, never underestimate the word at all. patience is a virtue, how true, but can u be patient for 2/3 of ur life?

oh anw, i came across this article this morning, about a really gruesome death in UK, some guy named simon sthg, was poured in petrol(or petroleum, or wadever i cant rmb, i just rmb its OIL), forced to gurgle some of it as well, and set on fire, while being tied to a tree.

the worst part is that this all arose from a WOMAN. theres this complicated love triangle thing, and 2 guys got really jealous and decided to do that to intimidate the poor guy. hes only 17yo, and he has a dream to be some form of host or entertainer i think.. i really pity him. well, i cant believe humanity has evolved into this, where reality is crude and can be harsher.

jealousy and wrath are sins, and if combined, can be really fatal..

Matt Shirvington rocks :)

hes not the best but still.. hes good.

10s for 100m omg. thats my goal lols.


oh theres no school today, so here i am, just wasting my day away.

No boundaries is a reallllllly nice song,

at least the melody is worth complimenting lol.

adam lambert'S version is definitely APPALLING.

listen to it yourself and u will know what i mean.

Kris's version is similar to David cook's time of my life,

gentler and singable LOL.

I think that i have a rather 'thin-skinned' tongue,

it always got scraped and tends to hurt,

i hate it whenever it happens as i will lose my appetite thereafter.

its like ur tongue feels so dry and rough and yet u cant put a plaster over,

and whenever u try to 'lick' it or sthg, it hurts terribly.

anyway, i finally passed my first test this year, 16/25 for my maths :)

thats worth celebrating actually, since this sparks off some motivation to at least work harder

to get that pass for my other subjects.

this is kinda ironic actually, since passing was never an option.

also, someone dissed me off today, and its similar to sthg which happened recently.

SO, i dont get to run for colosseum AT ALL.

kindawasted my effort today actually, since my alleged plan was not to come school

since im SOOOOOOOO darn dog-tired.

i will post up some pictures soon as soon as YL send me those pictures.

i cant believe i was that naive to get tricked into sthg too.

ugh.

oh, ive been drinking so much water recently that i often wake up needing to ans nature's call.

any help? dont ask me to drink less, its friggin hot!

I FAILED CHEM AGAIN.. ohwell.

nvm.

anyway, recently ive been following Britain's got Talent 09,

especially Shaun Smith and Susan Boyle(go search for them).

rather amusing, but i didnt think they did as well as they did previously in the auditions.

sure enough, both got through to the finals.

its amazing how such a simple competition has got most of the world on their feet,

and i realised im not the only follower of the show, many singaporeans too.

on the other hand, imagine Sg idol, would the world even give a damn about us?

american idol has made such an uproar(obviously bcuz kris won instead of adam),

that it is even published in OUR newspapers.

i pity our country tho, and local stars.

its almost impossible to expand our careers worldwide,

hollywood dreams? forget it.

oh and i realised that i can have a rather deep conversation with nicholas.

kinda interesting how we can actually hold a conversation since 4 to about 6+

and our topics are definitely not the 'you watch porn? got gf anot?' kinda topic la.

i can grasp quite a fair bit of analytical skills from the way he described things.

and im feelin darn hot now,

ugh, WHY CANT SINGAPORE SNOW?

oh KRIS ALLEN won AI8,
yay.Next will be me on stage LOL

Unglamness post no2 :D
candidate 1: PEKCHUN, our cute lil model CG rep
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Candidate no2: YYY, the lamer. hello YYY, i know ure reading this. Congrats, ure on cam :D

Candidate no3: Neville, our wushu cap.

omg

Thats all for today :D
tune in again soon for part 3

HELLO DEBRA I KNOW URE GONNA READ THIS. DONT WORRY LA PICTURES QUALITY QUITE BAD :D
I still think im so cute, yes?

yay :)