seems weird, that i only blog on days when i feel ensnared with emotions, often the gloomy kind. likewise for today. good in a way though, i dont get to be a doormat and i dont blog often(:

i feel guilty today, i accidentally spilled water on some guy's PSP, damn. of course he's gotta blow, but at least there's no uproar, his PSP is alright though, and he's good enough to let it go with a nvm gesture. naw, that's not wad made me cranky.

it's reflection of thoughts really, sometimes i think too much, sometimes i dont think at all, that's cause for worry. i feel that by adjoining choices, that dream and kiterunner, you would somehow understand my life. i should be blessed, but i dunno wad's with my train of thoughts, why i have to make my life complicated.

i think relationships are verrrrry complex, sophisticated, etc etc etc.. then there's the fear of accepting, fear of rejecting, fear of being dejected, fear of being mishandled, fear of being mistreated etc etc etc.. nope, didnt really go through 1 yet, not mature enough? sometimes i envy those in relationships, but i dont jump at the chance when 1 comes. dont feel like handling one right now, O's more important. furthermore, what if ure a guy, will you accept someone older than you, but like someone else at the same time? or if ure a girl and like someone (younger) than you but fear being rejected? or just cause you, a girl made the first move?
interesting how a relationships can screw up somebody eh. sometimes it feels good to be single and wanted. (:

i think i havent been a really good friend, i cant seem to trust, but somehow or rather i am trusted with secrets. ive been quite cold to certain people, have put up false fronts yadaa yadaa. MAN, I FEEL SO EMO.

what's up with crankiness? seems to be finding me quite frequently nowadays. not stress definitely, or maybe it is, but i dont feel the pinch. i need a life, some time to relax, and someone who i can spill everything to. but i cant seem to trust. ohwell.

i have a choice to live or die, be it young or old, be it happy or sad, be it stressful or stress free, ahfaoufhaoghaoduihgiuasogoiuwroeg. sometimes i dont even know what im writing or thinking. i can be really random, yet they may mean something.

i think ive been blabbering nonsense, or something close. i feel dog-tired. maybe all i really need is a good sleep.

p.s just ignore whatever's up there, i dont know what's wrong with me either.

D4 + The Teens + Ms Chua = Invincible :D
SOLO NEXT YEAR, WHEE

TAGREPLIES:
zhiyi: yeah, updated what, with 2 posts (:
ahmed: i think i really need to FREE MY MIND, too much crap inside / yeah the dream is significant though.
sabina: i mean i HELP u upload onto MY blog, at least it wont be compressed(: that creepy doll song we heard at the dance xplosion thing, at least my definition of creepy uh. / hahahahahhaha, i think i will be happiest if i can stop thinking(:
khoonhwa: yeah, so unexpected also. like im some emo kid
hazelll: i dont know? haha, they like me, for the wrong reasons lol.
lala: hey, you are?
jiayu: i hope i can not think too much too, sucks to be me :( dont worry la, im happy 90% of the time anyway haha. this is one of the 10% of my life