Beginning of a new 'me'

Life really sucks more than usual this year. Ive learnt many things but the lessons came with a great price. My life seems to be dwindling into an abyss, or close to one. i do wish to see a light at the end of the tunnel, or in this case, a hole.

I have a recollection of that pokemon movie where the pokemons fell into a hole and landed in a pokemon paradise. And, everything just gets better. I do not want a smooth-sailing life, but i do not want to be on a roller coaster which dips constantly. I want corkscrews and stuff like this, if you get what i mean.

Today, ive been officially been labelled as a 'reserve' after a great deal of practising and bonding with the team and all. Yeah, winning > friendship. i agree on that, guess i havent been practising hard enough to deserve that place. Still this bubbling sorrow sucks.

Ive always tried to inculcate the 'nonchalence' in my life, but it always end up with sharp lances of guilt. Through cultivating this characteristic, ive caused myself to be distant from many people, particularly the people from my previous class.

What ended up was me making new friends and preserving superficial friendships with my schoolmates. Guess i finally understand the logic of 'many close friends' OR 'few true friends' kinda crap.

I yearn for instant results. Only 1 week of studying and i feel all high and mighty. This downfall is certain, but uncalled for. I abhor my current disposition, yet i do not have the mood to reverse all these shit.

I need even greater motivation and it seems NTU is my only goal at the moment. I lost my passion for many things, and i hope that god will reignite them. i want to be able to relish in my fine achievements and bask in glory.

I believe that i can get through this period of my life. With god guiding me, and my family and friends(those who care) who are still holding on to me, I will break thru this barrier and overcome whatever obstacles coming my way.

'Hope is a dangerous thing'

i realised i have 99 posts now, 1 more from my antipicipated 100. now it didnt really matter anymore, guess i lost that excitement along the way

I havent been on here for a long time but i realised this is prolly my place of solace. talking about stuff with people isnt exactly feasible since i will just ramble on.

i havent been a very nice person all these while, and it was reflected by people's obvious reactions. sometimes it can be considered a blessing in disguise, otherwise, it's just pile and pile of crap.

its a dilemma most of the time
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Another few

For TOK YU LING's benefit.. jang geun suk, 2 yoonas and 2 sungmins..

I think some nursery rhymes are focusing and teaching the wrong things:

5 little ducks went out one day
over the hills and far away
mother duck shouts quack quack quack quack
and only 4 little ducks came back

-the mother duck hecks the poor lost duckling ):
and nobody ever asks why or where it went!

Alex found a hedgehog in his backyard
I know how to count its 2. but thats not the point.
i want a hedgehog as pet too :)
richie needs a companion

Hallo blog :)

PW is officially over *cheers*
*pop champagne*
*cork hits YW*
*FUCK LA! - YW*
*Wahpiang! dont scold f can anot -.- - YN*
*GrizzleY! - Fabian*
*Wahlau! mai cha la - Ethel*
*Diam la, ai de - CR*
*Kan bu dao shui zai shuo hua - YC*
*HAHAHAHA(laughs for nothing) - Debra*
*-_- - YL*

0.o

Anyway i went to sgforum just now, the marketplace actually, because i wanna get these necklaces

Someone please tell me where i can it in singapore ):

Anyway, one of the thread in the forum is: Should music be free?

then there was a really stupid reply. Am not going to spell out his name, but he does have a peabrain.

'music should be free! not unless you intend to sell it.

most of the artist shown in some crappy music channels only intend to milk our pockets and thats it! compare to people in ug scenes and indie who do shows for the love of it and donations do exist, yeah, and they use it just to cover all of the venue expenses or some will do it a better cause.

mtv heres a fat middle finger for you'

splitting up:
'music should be free! not unless you intend to sell it.'
-DUH, then buy? donate? provide direct provision?

'most of the artist shown in some crappy music channels only intend to milk our pockets and thats it!'
-Smart aleck, nobody asked him to purchase all the CDs in the world. He should be wise enough to judge for himself the good from the bad, and just make payments for those he prefers. One cd is only about 20+ bucks, and that milks his pockets? If so, he should be saving up for the three meals he probably lack every day.

Oh, does he know about freedom of choice? where he is entitled to NOT watch the channels and NOT buy the CDs?

'compare to people in ug scenes and indie who do shows for the love of it and donations do exist, yeah, and they use it just to cover all of the venue expenses or some will do it a better cause.'
-Yes, donations do exist, but donations to cover up for venue expenses? Is the guy nuts or living in limbo? which sane person will offer to donate like 100k to offer some artist to sing on stage in a theatre or a concert hall? Even if the same artist is to perform 24/7, the funds he received in a month will probably be insufficient to even cover up half an hour's rental fees of a concert hall.

also, love for music = getting donations? What if some prick who absolutely adores music is so untalented and tonedeaf that nobody is willing to donate anything?

'mtv heres a fat middle finger for you'
-At least MTV's more successful.

moin!

Dramas often have these introductory songs at the start or something. I think that its kinda dumb sometimes, especially for the family drama serials. They often portray a full family at the end, with the happy couples. Viewers will then know that X will be with Y, while Y will not be with Z, even if currently, Y is with Z. See its already a spoiler.

Sometimes, when the drama is about marriages, it's worse. It shows the ending directly. All the marriages are laid out side by side, and the single lads and lasses will be sidelined.

It beats the purpose totally. And this is MOST frequent in singapore dramas. kinda pointless and stupid.

The Americans are smarter, most of the time there isnt even an intro song. they go straight to the airing, which isnt a waste of time or resources. Some songs may be nice, but it can be irritating.. and unless the dramas like really cool, nobody's gonna bother about the song.

At least do it the TXFB way, the song is so drama and the plot is simply perfect, with so much twists here and there. HK dramas FTW. Some of the Americans' too, like Supernatural :)

Sg dramas = TCMI

OP is driving me mad. ):

I swear my family is breeding alcoholism.


I have drank wine soooooo many times this year.

No, I aint complaining, i like it :)

I think i need to change my blogskin, but im so lazy to find.

Most of the skins are so girlish.


I just watched the sickest video called '3 men 1 hammer'

its GROSS TTM TTM TTM X9999999999999999999999999

you have been warned to even see the preview pictures:

watch it here

good luck for the dardevils :)