Moin!

Realised that i cant contain hatred for long, whatever happened seem long gone and forgotten, maybe its a good thing :D

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emo post, u are warned.

Shit happens, and today it did.

well first i spoilt my earphone, den my family had some fucked up issue.

well i was called spoilt(who spoilt me?), and non-self-reflective(right, sms not?)..

oh it all arose from something rather small, like the fucked up DELL PC which i intend to repair maybe 10-20mins later, or when they go out for dinner.

den i learnt that 'parents are not role models, neither are siblings' exist, since 'traditional' and 'shy' parents are not supposed to say sorry, but their children are supposed to.

den i lost all respect of somebody because she is unable to substantiate any of her points well, but instead, exercise her authority with a 'dont test my limit' when she was trying to 'reconcile'

did i mention that they were all enjoying their tv programs when they said they are worried?

anyway they have many weak points, especially about the memories thing. i dont have the best memory, but i was so disappointed that i have better memories of things i did well yet it was not ever taken into consideration.

speaking about taking the first step, what was their first step in engaging a decent conversation without snapping or just shutting the fuck up?

thanks for all your contributions tho, i wouldnt be this way if ud never taught me like u did. I love all my materials too, which is equivalent to ur love. appreciate it.

how i wish i was borned somewhere else, like america or the UK where by 18 i would have my own place.

then the not so emo part..
I feel mighty lucky i have muhd and lw.. they are my best pals, listening and cheering me up. i really dunno what i will do without them. despite them having their stuff to be busy with, they took the time to provide a listening ear and doing all they can, trying to help me tide over. i would not ask for anyone better than them. i wont give anything up for them really, never ever felt so touched before, and understood. THANKS GUYS, I KNOW U WILL READ THIS. or i hope u would. <3 dont give a damn if its mushy or gay :])

i wanna do some ionic eqm tut now,
laters.

81st post!
19 more to go, then it marks my first success towards my #4672979th blog tries.
I actually wanted to blog about something but i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
Apart from the fact that i had just taken MYE and didnt do as well as i hope for.
ohwell, shit happens.
Anyway i bought McFly's RadioACTIVE album, and man, i love it!
I wish i can lay my hands on Michelle Branch's albums ):
And i recently found out some nasty secrets
urgh